Friday, December 31, 2010

Over It

Over it
Over trying
Over caring
Over you
And your harsh staring
I'll give up
I'll give in
I'll not want
To win
I sit here
I just don't care
Anymore
I'll just leave
Walk through
That door
I hate this game
Don't like this club
I'm turning around
I've given up
You don't want me
I don't want you
You reject me
I reject you
I'll copy your actions
You'll wonder why
You've grieved
My heart
You've poked my eye
And made me blind
I can't see anymore
Just what is real
I can't see the colors
I don't want to feel
The pain
You cause
The hurt
The loss
I'm over it
I'm over you

Monday, December 20, 2010

I Will

I will protect you
I will respect you
I will love you
I will hold you
I will adore you
I will take care of you
I will disagree with you
I will fight you
I will please you
I will hate you
I will take you
I will want you
I will need you
I will complete you

Friday, December 17, 2010

The Unknown

The unknown awaits
It lurks
Across the edge
Around the bend
Outside my window
Under my bed
And in my closet
I shutter
At the thought
The thought
Of confronting it
Of doing something
Of making a decision
Of going forward
It's safe
Standing still
Not moving
Not deciding
Not doing
It's safe
To be told
To listen
To not be bold
To not confront
The fear
The fear of the unknown

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Open Your Eyes

Open your eyes
See the world
The one i tell you about
Look around
Don't be blind
To the reasons why
It's crumbling down
Lift the veil
The one you wear
Stop hiding
Hiding from the truth
Take off those glasses
With the dark tint
The colors changed
In your youth
Turn your binoculars
The other way
Get a look
At the bigger picture
Take those goggles
Off your face
They'll leave a mark
As the world grows
It grows more sinister
Oh why
Oh why
Can't you
Just open your eyes
Open them up
Look around
And really see
See the world
The world
And the sea
Harry Potter Gryffindor House Scarf

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Nintendo Guy

There is a guy i used to know
He was really cool
Before he got his Nintendo
I used to see him
Walk the street
Now hes obsessed
Cuz he cant be beat
He used to have friends
A life
A car
Now he has Nintendo
Princess peach
A better car
He lost some weight
He doesn't talk so much
His parents think its great
Cuz hes so well behaved
He doesn't get in trouble
Cuz he doesn't leave his room
But if you opened the door
And took a look inside to see
You find the truth
Of his insanity
Junk food wrappers
All around
Tons of games
Spread on the ground
He doesn't shower
Or brush his teeth
He fills his Pepsi bottles
When he has to pee
But he has tons of lives
About two hundred and fifty
Hes beat his games
Several times
And he holds all the high scores
On the games online
Hes a Jedi master
A detective
An alien
A kung fu fighter
A pilot
A king
He has his own town
City
And farm
And he can destroy a whole castle
Without moving his arm
He could win any thumb war
Cuz his thumb is so strong
And he can kick some major butt
While playing pong
You can try to be like him
But it would take so long
Cuz hes lived a thousand lives
And hes a winner all the way
I need to get a Nintendo
That's all i can say

Thought I would share one I wrote just for fun. I really do love to play Nintendo.

Friday, December 10, 2010

My Wild Grass

Wild grass mowed down
A flower uprooted
A leaf fallen
A house demolished
Where is your life?
Where is your vigor?
Why does this happen?
Why do you wither?
I looked to you
For strength
I turned to you
To learn
Now i see
You wasting away
In front of me
What i behold
With my eyes
I despise
And what i feel
In my heart
Tears me apart
It is inevitable
It is unavoidable
It is unmistaken
It is the end
Of you
My wild grass
Grow free
My flower
Bloom for me
My leaf
Float away
My house
I stand on your foundation

I wrote this when I found out that my mom was sick with a disease, that will eventually kill her. It is hard to watch her fade away from the person she once was.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Know

I thought I knew
The things I know
But now I know
I never knew
For if I had known
What I know
I would of knew
Just who I was
I would of known
Just who were you
I would of knew
Just what was true
I would of known
What I could do
I didn't know
What I now know
You knew
I couldn't know
For if I knew
What I know
I would of known

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Grey Metal Machine

You're standing there
Blue shirt and jeans
Such matted hair
Looking out at the scene
Blank stare
Trying not to care
But violence
Is everywhere

You can't change it
You can't control it
Feeling so out of place
You tense up
You can't move
Immobilized by emotions
The deafening sound
Of metal grinding
Like a barking hound

What grey destruction
Hovering over me
Like a robot
Gone mad

If you spoke
You would say
Get away
Get lost
Go destroy
Someone else
Let me be
Set me free
Take your hold
Away from me

But you're alone
All alone
No ones there
To help me

I would destroy you
Metal square
I'll recycle your parts
So you stop polluting
The air
A hammer
To beat
Dents into you
Or maybe
The heat
To melt
Everything you once knew

Finally set free
From your power
Over me

I wrote this about how I felt as a child feeling so powerless to counteract the abuse surrounding me. I felt as if I was alone. These are the things I wish I could of done or said to change what was happening. I was searching for this freedom from the world I knew.